A(gain)

6. 5 lb gain this week. I kept looking at the number, in disbelief. That can't be right..but it is...Boy have I stepped back from reality. I've cried my tears this morning, and I didn't cry long. I knew that today would be a gain, just didn't know how much..Well this was a HUGE wake up call. A call that needs to be heard.

Follow the agreement will be in my head...This week while the kids are on spring break I'll try and get my workout in first thing in the morning before breakfast..I'll grab a banana and eat that before workout. Grab my water bottle and do something.

Love and Miss You

Promise

I Ang, promise to post here more and check in with the other fabbies.

I promise to be truthful, and real..I promise to post the good times, and the not so good times.

I promise, to honor myself, to honor the fabbies, and most of all to honor this agreement.

So So

It's been a so so week. I've tried to honor this agreement, some days are better than others. I don't expect a loss this Monday..If I do it will be a shocker. More emotional, I could give a rats butt, eating seems to have entered my thoughts, and mouth..Repercussions with IBS attacks too. Fun Stuff.

The last couple of days I've been reading "new to me" weight loss blogs and learning that I am not the only one struggling, and that makes me feel better, somewhat but in the same sense I am trying to get past what ever "this" is.

I'm trying to build up motivation again. Small baby steps.

I've been out looking at new mattresses. I fell in love with the Tempurpedic but don't think we would be able to afford it. I really need a new mattress. I think it would make a difference in my sleep and how I wake up. I'm up several times a night, with aches and pains. The present mattress is ten years old, let's face it, it's broke down from age and our combined weight. OY!

Hope all is well with ya'll.

Safe Journeys

wishing u all a safe trip to la..have fun..take pictures..savor every second with each other. torment richard when possible. enjoy good food, many places, small talk, deep talk, self love, friendship, sisterhood, and getting real. remember how you met, how far you've come and where you are headed.

love and miss you all

My name is Claudia and I am a foodoholic

I am here to announce that my name is Claudia and I am a foodoholic. I have no control with food. I am back to some of my worst food behavior. I am buying cake and ice cream knowing full well that I will eat the whole thing as soon as I get home. I am eating alone, in private. I am in food hiding.

You would think that I would be motivated to eat healthy now that I'm less than a week from our Fab Four reunion and also seeing Richard. I have just lost control of my food self. What the hell is wrong with me? ........... It's pathetic, really.....

Checking In

I've got to turn the negative trend around. 4 weeks a gain. I've posted on the other blog. I'm gonna look like such a hypocrite Thursday.

Goals for this week:
I will record my meals, every meal, 7 days this week.
I will drink 3-24 oz bottles of water minimum per day
I will exercise a minimum of 30 minutes 6 days this next week.
I will blog daily to keep me accountable.

I want to go back to the way it was in January, when I was losing weight and was right in *my* world. Now it feels it's out of control and full of chaos..

I've been reading snippets of you on the boards. Hope all is well in your worlds. You must be getting excited as your meeting is getting closer and closer.

We've gone over the budget and I will be able to only afford one trip to LA this year. So I'm going to try and book the retreat again, and hopefully I'll be able to see some of you.